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Aprile 2018, tante esperienze nuove

30 Apr

Bentornati nel blog vuoto. Notavo che il primo post di Aprile è stato arronzato, perché, essendo contemporaneamente Pasqua e, appunto, il Primo Aprile, non avevo idea di cosa dire o fare.

Ad ogni modo, ci stiamo avvicinando alla fine del primo terzo dell’anno (in teoria, avremmo vissuto un terzo del 2018 alle 16 del 2 Maggio). Mi auguro soltanto che il secondo terzo, che comprende l’Estate, sia migliore del primo.

Comunque, questo Aprile è stato particolare perché, pur non essendo stato migliore dal punto di vista emotivo, di certo mi ha visto fare molte più cose degli altri mesi. Tanto per cominciare, sono stato a Milano per la prima volta in vita mia, e ne sono stato colpito. Milano è gigantesca, ben organizzata e attrezzata su tantissime cose, e sono contento di averla potuta osservare meglio.

Poi, c’è stato un evento, Cuore di Napoli, organizzato dall’Accademia di Belle Arti nei Quartieri Spagnoli. La cosa “bella” è che l’atmosfera vivace è come io immagino quei quartieri siano sempre, ma a quanto pare non è vero. Ciononostante, mi sono divertito moltissimo!

Infine, non posso non mettere in mezzo il Napoli Comicon. Ottava edizione consecutiva a cui prendo parte, mi è sembrato anche migliore rispetto agli anni precedenti. Per me, infatti, era da un paio d’anni che il livello era rimasto quanto più alto possibile, e credevo non si potesse più migliorare. Mi hanno fatto ricredere, con un’ottima organizzazione e gestione.

Vedete? Io comunque ho fatto tantissime cose, per cui non me la sento di buttare il mese di Aprile solo perché, magari, non mi sono sentito emotivamente bene, oppure perché avrei dovuto partecipare al Camp NaNoWriMo, ma l’ho fatto in una maniera talmente arronzata che spero le cose cambino con quello di Luglio.

Per la cronaca, è da sempre che Aprile mi fa stare in un modo strano. Non so perché, ma credo sia anche legato a quanto vicino io sia al mio compleanno. Non so, ma comunque Aprile è stato come sempre, ma mi ha fatto godere un sacco di belle esperienze.

Con questo, posso concludere qui il mese di Aprile. A Maggio, spero che succedano tante belle cose, perché, ripeto, arriva l’Estate, e vorrei fare in modo che sia diversa da quella dell’anno scorso.

Alla prossima, sempre qui, sul blog vuoto!

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Serie A 2017-2018: a tre giornate dal termine

29 Apr

Bentornati nel blog vuoto. Stasera, la quartultima giornata di campionato si è conclusa, e, sebbene non abbia decretato verdetti, ha sicuramente lasciato intendere che molte corse sono vicine alla conclusione.

Comunque, come al solito, osserviamo la classifica partendo dal basso.

20 Benevento 18

Onore al Benevento nel cercare di uscire a testa più alta possibile dalla fine del campionato. Come ho detto in articoli precedenti, quanto dimostrato nelle ultime settimane prova che, l’anno prossimo, un campionato di B con tanto di promozione in A è possibile.

19 Verona 25

18 Chievo 31

17 SPAL 32

16 Cagliari 33

15 Crotone 34

14 Udinese 34

Il Verona sembrava quasi in punto di poter riemergere dal penultimo posto, ma cinque sconfitte consecutive significano che hanno 7 punti di svantaggio a 3 giornate dal termine. La gara contro il Milan di Sabato, quindi, potrebbe sancire la retrocessione.

Inoltre, adesso è il Chievo a trovarsi al terzultimo posto, e c’è quindi il rischio che la Verona calcistica veda una doppia retrocessione abbastanza clamorosa.

La SPAL, però, cerca di evitare di tornare in B quando mancava in A da 50 anni, e inoltre vorrebbe evitare di vedere le tre neopromosse retrocedere subito.

Cagliari, Crotone e Udinese sono nel mirino immediato, nel senso che basterebbe una sconfitta e si troverebbero al terzultimo posto. Di queste, l’Udinese ha finalmente realizzato un punto dopo mesi di sconfitte, ma la prossima partita è contro l’Inter.

Occhio, inoltre, a Chievo-Crotone, che sa tantissimo di scontro diretto. I calabresi potrebbero salvarsi vincendo al Bentegodi, mentre i clivensi avvicinerebbero ancora di più la corsa.

13 Sassuolo 37

12 Bologna 39

Le due emiliane “a strisce” sono ancora matematicamente nella lotta salvezza, ma, quando hai 6 e 8 punti rispettivamente, e mancano solo 3 giornate, puoi essere più tranquillo.

11 Genoa 41

10 Torino 47

Il Genoa è matematicamente salvo, realizzando la solita quota salvezza dei 40 punti. Il Torino, invece, vede un’altra volta sfumare la corsa per l’Europa League. In pratica, le due squadre che, insieme, celebreranno i 120 anni del campionato, non hanno alcun obiettivo adesso.

9 Fiorentina 54

8 Sampdoria 54

7 Milan 57

6 Atalanta 58

La corsa all’Europa League resta equilibrata, ma comunque i tre punti di vantaggio del Milan diventano sempre più pesanti. I rossoneri devono aggrapparsi con le unghie e con i denti al settimo posto, perché, dopo un’estate spendacciona e promesse di un ritorno alla gloria, finire al di fuori delle competizioni internazionali sarebbe disastroso.

L’Atalanta confermerebbe che la scorsa annata non era stata un momento raro e difficilmente ripetibile, ma la Fiorentina (che ha praticamente deciso la corsa scudetto travolgendo il Napoli) e la Sampdoria (che, ricordo, è stata in zona europea per quasi tutto il campionato) non mollano.

5 Inter 66

4 Roma 70

3 Lazio 70

La sofferta vittoria della Juventus nel derby d’Italia rischia di aver deciso che saranno le romane ad andare in Champions League, salvo probabili scivoloni. Un po’ mi dispiace, perché era bello vedere tre squadre in perfetto equilibrio scontrarsi.

2 Napoli 84

Il Napoli era riuscito ad arrivare ad un punto di distanza dalla Juventus, ma la serataccia di Firenze ha rovinato tutto. Certo, mancano ancora tre giornate, ma recuperare 4 punti ai bianconeri quando se ne hanno soltanto 9 a disposizione sembra troppo dura.

1 Juventus 88

Prima di Juventus-Napoli, i bianconeri potevano addirittura pensare all’allungo definitivo. Poi, però, Koulibaly ha cambiato le cose. Adesso, invece, si trovano a quattro punti di vantaggio avendo soltanto una sfida insidiosa, quella contro la Roma, per cui potrebbero addirittura celebrare lo scudetto con una giornata in anticipo.

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The culture behind a Megazord: The End

28 Apr

The culture behind a Megazord: The End

Welcome back to my blog. First, why is this article dated April 28th when I am writing about something that was revealed on May the 1st? Well, I’ll get to it later.

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Motivation

24 Apr

Motivation

This article is some sort of paradox for me, because I want to write about what is blocking my writing creativity, but I don’t know what to do or say because of that very block.

The problem here is that this is way more than just your typical writer’s block. This goes beyond that.

Last year, I felt like my will to write had improved: not only I took part at both Camp NaNoWriMos of April and July (winning both), but I managed to write something every day from late March to early September. A semester of daily writing!

Then, on November, I participated at my first NaNoWriMo. I was so focused on my project that I almost stopped caring about everything else, which is both a good and a bad thing.

The goal was to write 50 thousand words, but I doubled that number, creating multiple drafts and alternate scenes over the course of the month.

My 2017 served as a build up to NaNoWriMo, which was my biggest accomplishment of the year (but the subject of how my 2017 went is a matter of something different that I think should have been published much earlier than in April of the following year). I was amazed!

Then. I noticed flaws, gaps, plot holes and the many errors of my story.

Now, I said earlier that I took part at both Camps, right? Well, the “two” stories were actually the same, and that’s what I can say about my NaNo project. On top of that, I stated outlining this WIP back in March 2016!

Sure, I didn’t spend the last 2 years writing only that: other projects did come to my mind during that span.

However, as 2018 kicked in, I started seeing my project falling apart. There were multiple boring parts, the stakes of the adventure were not clear, I had to deal with too many characters and so on.

Thus, I decided to try to use various elements of previous drafts, because there were multiple scenes I loved to write that I didn’t want to see wasted away. For a while, this was going well, and I even told myself that I could have finished it before my 25th birthday, which is in the middle of May.

Yet, this was a period where I started “falling apart” myself. During the autumn, I had spent more time than usual to study for my winter exams, and the good feeling of “fusing studying and free time hobbies” was amazing, because, if I was not studying, I was using my knowledge on my stories.

I felt like never before, and I thought nothing could have stopped me.

Then, the day of the exam arrived … and, well, if I slacked off and didn’t pick up a book the entire autumn, I would have probably gotten the same bad result.

During the same period, both my writing and my studying skills let me down, and my lack of motivation kicked in.

Now, for the studying part, I started going to the library more often, so at least I can say it “recovered” (not to mention that I did pass one exam later, and it was one of the most difficult ones).

The writing, however …

The more time it was passing, the more I figured out how bad I am at writing.

Now, I need to digress a little here. I am the kind of person that does something but disagrees with his friends over whether I am good or bad. All my friends believe my writing is good, but I always think I am a bad and boring content maker who needs to improve a lot.

And I thought I was pulling it off, but, then, I noticed that my writing flaws were always there.

My characters are always flat, especially the male ones, who seem to only be there for cheap fanservice romance (I am serious: even though I am a guy, I cannot seem to conceive a male character without giving him a love interest and a background centred around their love).

Some have also mentioned how they always seem to be “prepared” and skilful in what they are supposed to do, but that’s just because I hate when a story tells you “the main character has no training nor experience whatsoever in this topic” but then they are able to learn what to do within days. I prefer when you show and tell me that he or she knows what to do thanks to years of training, and not just because “they are the main characters”.

The tones don’t seem to mix well with each other. In the case of my project, everything seems to have come out of a fairy tale, with beautiful places, colourful landscapes and “cute” adventures … and then my main characters have always a dark backstory and are in a constant existential crisis. The problem is that I don’t know what to do, if lighten up the characters or make the place darker.

Then, we reach the writing itself. When I talk in real life, I am incredibly talkative, to the point I have so many topics to discuss that my friends don’t always follow what I am saying, and they could be different from each other, like going from a chat about life and nature to what I watched on Netflix, all without transitions.

This I something I translate into writing, because I want to tell you so much that my pacing is all over the place.

There is also a flaw I actually “like” about my writing, which is that I tend to be too much “cultural”. A character has to have a specific name because it’s a reference to Japanese literature, or because that’s what gives away what they are going to be and do in my story. Throwaway lines, places, clothing and many other things have a cultural background, and some believe it may be “pointless” since not so many readers would notice it. However, I love learning so much that it is impossible for me not to use what I learn in my creativity.

I spent the whole month of March trying to fix my flaws, but I always seem to circle around it and never being able to fix it.

Okay, I just wrote more than one thousand word, and I don’t seem to have gotten to the point of what I wanted to say. Kind of ironic how I wrote something too “wordy” when I also mentioned that I am not able to stay focused on a particular aspect for too long. Well, at least now I know that this flaw can be corrected sooner.

Anyway, what I wanted to write about here is … motivation.

In those months, I came close to having a breakdown because of writing. Multiple times.

With breakdown, I mean crying, feeling desperate, having dark thoughts (though it’s not like my mind usually tells me good and positive stuff anyways …), becoming angrier with no reason and other things. Also, I have “wasted” so many hours trying to write with no effort, getting to the point where I thought “let’s see how much I’ll write this weekend”, only to spend it being sad and unable to do stuff.

I never experienced something like this because of writing. The other times, it was something much different, something I don’t want to talk about because I already “digressed a little” for a page, so let’s get back on track!

One of the reasons is that I lack of motivation. I do not have that one thing, that goal that tells me “you should keep writing”. When I write, it’s always for myself, and myself only. I need writing in my life because it makes it much better, but what happens when it starts worsening it?

The voice inside my head is a huge mess. During the same afternoon, I can go from “I could do this all day” to “I need to quit writing” and vice versa.

In addition, I have now developed a specific feeling, which is my brain “shutting down” when I force myself into writing. I actually feel like nothing is in my head when I get this feeling, and, when it happens, I do not go any further, knowing it would be pointless.

Even when I try to give myself “fake” goals, it never gets me good stuff. An example would be this Camp NaNoWriMo. I decided to use a completely different project to “train” myself, but I stopped having ideas after a few days. Sure, there’s still a lot of time before the end of April, and I set for a small goal of 10 thousand words, but I am still stuck where I have been for the last months.

I just don’t know what to do or to say, and I’ve tried a lot. Improving my reading, going to the library, writing in multiple languages, doing sprints, talking to fellow writer friends (some of whom really helped me out). However, my lack of motivation keeps stopping myself.

Okay, after almost three pages, this should be the ending. Usually, articles like this would provide an end where the writer would tell you how it worked out, but I am still in the middle of this period where I don’t know what to do, and it would probably continue for a while.

In fact, I want to use the final part of the article to address eventual fellow writers in a similar situation. You should not worry. If you feel “anxious” about something, it’s because you care about it. Sure, you could end up in a paradox of writing a battle scene in an hour and then spending weeks for a simple dialogue about cherry blossoms, but that’s okay.

Yet, if you can’t seem to find motivation, what I can suggest is that waiting it would be the equivalent of waiting for Godot. This is the kind of path where you should start walking, even just for a few steps, because things like motivations prefer people who decided to walk the walk, instead of talk the talk (I hope you get what I am saying).

My steps are little and careful, because I don’t even understand where I am going, but, as long as I am walking, I know I will find something.

Wouldn’t you like to go see that something as well?

 

(Special thanks to my friend Alex who helped me writing this article)

Serie A 2017-2018: a quattro partite dal termine

23 Apr

Bentornati nel blog vuoto. Il campionato torna ad essere equilibrato sotto tutti i fronti dopo la vittoria del Napoli ai danni della Juventus che riaccende la corsa scudetto.

A quattro partite dal termine, l’unico verdetto deciso è la retrocessione del Benevento, che, però, era praticamente in aria da mesi. Certo, che una squadra che ha conquistato il suo primo punto a Dicembre sia riuscita a resistere in qualche modo fino ad Aprile è ammirevole.

Comunque, andiamo a vedere la situazione in classifica.

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